So I had my pre-op appointment on Monday. It went REALLY well! It went a little longer than I thought it would, but I'm not complaining! :) We got there at 9:30am and they called us (me and the hubster) back after about 5-10 minutes. We talked to my surgeon and went over everything one last time and I told him what I wanted as far as size goes for next weeks surgery. I tried on more sizers and I had my heart set on this one size. The nurse said that to keep in mind it would look just a tad bit smaller once they're in and under my muscle. Which reminds me if I didn't post on my last blog. I am getting Silicone high profile implants under the muscle. My surgeon and I both think that is best for me. He doesn't like saline overall because it's a lot firmer than silicone and less squishy and real feeling, plus saline tends to have a 'rippling' effect for a lot of women, especially women like me who don't have much breast tissue to begin with. And we're going under the muscle instead of over because again, I am very small chested with very little breast tissue, so it will look and feel much better having unders rather than overs. Plus, since I have such little amount of breast tissue, having the implants under the muscle will allow the muscle to help support the implants in place, rather than relying solely on tissue, make sense? Anyway, where was I? Oh, so when the nurse told me to remember that they'll be a tiny bit smaller once they're in me compared to how they look right then with the sizers on, that I should probably go up a size (cc size, not bra size). So I went up 2 sizes. Haha! Even with liking what I saw and then going up not 25 but 50 cc's, I still have this lingering thought in the back of my head, "should I call and see if I can go up just 25 more cc's?". I know most of you are reading this thinking, 'my Lord, they'll look fine...you don't want them TOO big do you?!' But in all honesty, I'm paying thousands and thousands of dollars for this and I'd much rather then be a little bigger than I wanted than a little smaller than I wanted...wouldn't you? And in case you're wondering what size I am getting, I'm not saying for now. I have told my mom and husband, and that is it. I don't want to hear people tell me what they think would look more natural on me or what size I should get. Besides, maybe I'm not looking to get them so they look completely natural. I definitely don't want porn star boobs, but I don't want to pay all this money to have 'average' boobs. As I put it to DH the other day, I'd like them to look naturally fake. I don't care if people have to wonder if they're real or not...but I don't want them to be THAT obvious that they aren't real. But when it really comes down to it, I really just care about how I feel about them. Either way, no matter what, I am more excited than ever and can not wait to get this done! Going to the final pre-op appointment made things so much more real for me. To hear all the last minute info from the surgeon and nurse about what to do and what not to do just made it all really sink in. I still keep having those moments when it's like I temporarily 'forget' I am getting this done and then realize that I am and start yelling to DH, "I'm getting my boobs!" LOL He probably thinks I am nuts, but oh well! Haha! Well, I need to get to bed. Class is in the morning and I need to get through this week of school before surgery first thing next Tuesday!
Ashley
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