Pre-op Appointment! Getting close!

So I had my pre-op appointment on Monday. It went REALLY well! It went a little longer than I thought it would, but I'm not complaining! :) We got there at 9:30am and they called us (me and the hubster) back after about 5-10 minutes. We talked to my surgeon and went over everything one last time and I told him what I wanted as far as size goes for next weeks surgery. I tried on more sizers and I had my heart set on this one size. The nurse said that to keep in mind it would look just a tad bit smaller once they're in and under my muscle. Which reminds me if I didn't post on my last blog. I am getting Silicone high profile implants under the muscle. My surgeon and I both think that is best for me. He doesn't like saline overall because it's a lot firmer than silicone and less squishy and real feeling, plus saline tends to have a 'rippling' effect for a lot of women, especially women like me who don't have much breast tissue to begin with. And we're going under the muscle instead of over because again, I am very small chested with very little breast tissue, so it will look and feel much better having unders rather than overs. Plus, since I have such little amount of breast tissue, having the implants under the muscle will allow the muscle to help support the implants in place, rather than relying solely on tissue, make sense? Anyway, where was I? Oh, so when the nurse told me to remember that they'll be a tiny bit smaller once they're in me compared to how they look right then with the sizers on, that I should probably go up a size (cc size, not bra size). So I went up 2 sizes. Haha! Even with liking what I saw and then going up not 25 but 50 cc's, I still have this lingering thought in the back of my head, "should I call and see if I can go up just 25 more cc's?". I know most of you are reading this thinking, 'my Lord, they'll look fine...you don't want them TOO big do you?!' But in all honesty, I'm paying thousands and thousands of dollars for this and I'd much rather then be a little bigger than I wanted than a little smaller than I wanted...wouldn't you? And in case you're wondering what size I am getting, I'm not saying for now. I have told my mom and husband, and that is it. I don't want to hear people tell me what they think would look more natural on me or what size I should get. Besides, maybe I'm not looking to get them so they look completely natural. I definitely don't want porn star boobs, but I don't want to pay all this money to have 'average' boobs. As I put it to DH the other day, I'd like them to look naturally fake. I don't care if people have to wonder if they're real or not...but I don't want them to be THAT obvious that they aren't real. But when it really comes down to it, I really just care about how I feel about them. Either way, no matter what, I am more excited than ever and can not wait to get this done! Going to the final pre-op appointment made things so much more real for me. To hear all the last minute info from the surgeon and nurse about what to do and what not to do just made it all really sink in. I still keep having those moments when it's like I temporarily 'forget' I am getting this done and then realize that I am and start yelling to DH, "I'm getting my boobs!" LOL He probably thinks I am nuts, but oh well! Haha! Well, I need to get to bed. Class is in the morning and I need to get through this week of school before surgery first thing next Tuesday!

Ashley

I'm FINALLY getting them!!!

Is this real? Like, is this REALLY happening?! I've wanting it for so long now and it seems every time I think I can get them, SOMETHING comes up and I can't. But not this time. Now everything is signed, set, scheduled, and paid for and I am beyond ready for this! A little background for those who don't know my story. When I was 16 I was a small-avg C cup. Then I got pregnant with my daughter and breastfed her for over a year. That left my pretty C up a medium B cup. Didn't complaint since I knew it could happen, and hey, at least I still had SOME boobage! LOL Fast forward a couple years and I had my first son and breastfed him as well. Afterward, it took my size from a decent B to a very smaaalll B/largish A cup (depending on the bra manufacturer). That's when the real thoughts about implants began. But being 20 years old and a single mom of 2, I didn't do anything about it because for one, I had more important things to do (school and work),and two, I didn't have the money whatsoever. So it was left a distant dream that I knew I would eventually get, just not anytime soon. Fast forward another few years and I had met my now husband and we had a baby. I breastfed that baby for over a year and can you guess what happened to the boobs afterward? You got it. They went even smaller than they were to begin with! I am not a 34/AA cup. Luckily, pregnancy and breastfeeding didn't make them sag, it just ate, literally ate, away any and basically all of my breast tissue inside my boobs. Not sure how that's even possible, but it is! And after my third, that's when this distant dream became a small obsession of mine. I was determined to get them done. I was tired of not having what I know I should have what I have had before, and tired of not fitting into shirts and bras correctly. I have one bra. That's right; one bra. It's the only one I have found to fit my cup size decently. And trust me, I have looked many places for new bras, but without fail, every time I try new ones on, I am leaving the store in tears because I can't find one that fits me properly. Not even the holy Victoria Secret bras fit these tata's! For over 7 years I have put my kids first in everything. And while I don't regret it, nor would I change it for the world, I do believe I deserve something for myself. I'm doing this for me. Not for anyone else, not even my husband. For me. So about 2 1/2 years ago when my youngest stopped breastfeeding, I started to look into breast augmentation and see what they prices were like and my goodness was I SHOCKED! It's a lot. Like the average family's gross income for 2 months kind of a lot! So as time went on, and I looked into it more and more, my husband and I started talking about it more seriously and came up with a plan for me to get them and pay cash. I knew from the beginning I do not want to take out a loan for them and be stuck paying a huge loan off that has 20% interest or whatnot. Every time we were expecting a big lump of money (tax return, bonus at work, etc), something last minute would come up that we'd have to put off on the boobs and use on other more important things. It was disappointing at first but as a mom and wife, you gotta do what you gotta do. But after 3 times of being let down by unexpected things popping up, I was starting to get discouraged and thought that maybe I should give up and let it rest for a few years. Then this last month of January came and it brought with it some great news! I have my surgeon chosen and he is wonderful and I know he will make me what I want. He is very experienced, board certified, very compassionate, and knows what I want for my outcome. Before meeting with him for the consultation, I looked up reviews about him online and looked at where he went to school at, any awards he has received, any board certifications he has, and his before and after photos on his website. I knew after seeing all of that and reading what other women had to say about him, that I needed to make a consultation with him and see if he's as awesome as he sounds. And he is! I don't have any nervousness about picking him as my surgeon. So to anyone who is considering any cosmetic surgery, please, please, please do your homework and don't just settle for just anyone. You don't want to settle with a surgeon and come out not liking what you see and have to pay another surgeon to go in and fix what the first did wrong. Okay, I had a super long day and I need to get off here or else I could type forever! LOL

Ashley <3